abuLia (menjelang ujian)

JaDi beKu......

salah pake CAPS, tapi jadi luchu juga..........L** reply my e-mail & dingiiiinnn bangeeettt.....
jadi don't know what to do in this way , maybe  dibiarkan saja sampe dia lupa (?) *sigh*
biarpun dia bilang (or we say nulis....)  

'gwe ga berubah apa2, masi nungguin elo'

Tapi... rasanya i'd better kalo he wrote more about his real feelings?

(tau ah, cape. . . abis ngerjain responsi RS daerah buat senen)

Icky (-partner responsi-) bilang style baju gwe mulai membosankan, suru blanja (i wish, tapi sibuk banget) pengen seh bli sendal utk liburan............. sumday, around next week maybe (?)

Have i told u L** mirip P**  in sort of things? such as kalo lagi ngegombal.... lalu how they treat girls (tukang tepe maksudnya)

Dapet pasien Peri apnea (brenti nafas) mendekati saat-saat  pulang jaga dari RSUB (mana harus ngumpul untuk rehearse ujian lage)  then jadinya ambu (kasi CPR) about 30 minutes.....

Katat icky (+gwe, saling menghibur each other) itung-itung  ngumpulin pahala utk ujian 

*Amin !*
Lalu gwe mesti seangkot ama cewe yang manja banget w/ her boyfre, (kayanya seh lagi sakit, still.... bikin sirik org aja ! ) 

Laper..... cape.... ngantuk..... gak punya pacar........abuLia menjelang ujian (tidak beriLmu)
Gwe berharap Tuhan baek aja ma gwe, dan menghitung amal2an yang gwe kumpulin slama di Bagian  Anak......
*sigh*

just don't feel well today

Prasaan gwe rada gak enak nowadays.... and i just don't know why (?)

Probably krn faktor external, one of them , gwe sedang tidak get along with girls di kelompok kecil satu lage.
Somehow  gwe lagi males aja bareng ma mereka & looks like mereka juga ga butuh-butuh amat ma gwe.
Speakin' of which, F**  jadian ma H** dan tadi sepertinya gw tidak merespon dgn baik.
abis mesti gmn lagi? itu kan predictable, just about the time aja.

Or faktor internal, gwe sedang thru' quarter-life crisis (emang ada yeah?)
Dimana gwe melihat orang dimana-mana udah punya pacar, go for a date....actually those such things ain't really matter to me (tapi kenapa akhir-akhir ini gwe jd think it thru'  yeah? )

Lalu, ada sikap gwe yg gak asik banget sama L**, when he call me & i don't have time for him
(it must be turn him down .....) sorry for that
Gwe rasa gwe mesti kursus otak kanan (?!) kursus sama peter dong.....

Gw rasa gwe mesti mendekatkan diri sama Tuhan for He always take me the way I am......
Males banget ke Jakarta ntar kawinan ami, sptnya kl gwe ikutan pun gwe bakal ga enjoy deh.
Maybe i just push myself too hard kalo sampe ikutan......
*eeehhhmmmm......*

Then about that boy with beautiful nose, gwe sedang berusaha gak ketemu / think/ gettn' involve with him ( for i don't have any future with him ?)
Tapi tadi ketemu, and my heart beats faster..... and  i can see from his face kalo dia juga seneng ktmu gwe ( tapi  gwe rasa dia juga tau kalo  we never can be together)

Masa gwe masih berkutat sama hal yang kaya gini while  temen-temen  gwe udah mao pada merit...

I should've make my own comittment to myself  [konyol ah......]

Right now i really need : a bath, wash my hair, wearin' a comfort pjamas, take time to pray, and convince myself that evrything will be ok (in His time?)

him & his beautiful nose

Happy birthday to pap
send him a msg in the mornin' (sekarang gwe rasanya bisa take him just the way he is)

Today  masuk Unit Gawat Darurat with the rest of the group
Rasanya ga tahan ama anak-anak  yang kerjanya lelet, bcoz i couldn't just stand  kalo ada pasien baru masuk !
Ada 1 bayi plus dengan perdarahan umbilikal, emang jelek banget seh keadaannya pas masuk juga, massive... ampe kaen pernel nya basah smua ama darah.

Guess whom I met this morning? rencananya seh cman nganter expertise ke radiologi, lalu met him & his beautiful nose. (Loh? koq? tiba2 ada 'beautiful nose' itu?)
iyah.... just now, I think  itu salahsatu hal (hal?)  yang gw suka dari dia.
I mean besides those personality, physically kan dia itu biasa aja,  for example, sipit, lalu overall yeah lumayan, tapi idungnya itu lohhh.... 

*hmmmhh*. . . . mungkin karena idung gw biasa aja ya ?!?

Tapi dia itu, kalo dari samping, (- lagi nyetir gitu - while I sat beside him) & his beautiful nose.....
All day long bikin gw jadi berpikir yang tidak-tidak... after touch his hand in the morning.
 
Actually i kinda miss him, jadi inget waktu gwe 'natalan' jaga, dan dia 'waisakan' jaga
*hehehehe*.... konyol banget ya. . . . 

Tak terasa..... 2 weeks to go di Anak, lalu kita beres A1 deh, I'm gonna miss this someday.

Tia ngajakin ke om yahya, gw seh bisa2 aja, rasanya lebih asek kalo mikirin liburan daripada ujian.

Speakin' of which.... gwe mau take some qualifying time with my family ah during holiday 

^_^

Luv the sunrise, fresh air, cute LiL' dogie, beach & sands, strawberries yoghurt, smeLs good kind of guy with beautiful nose ;p