O ALQUIMISTA

THE ALCHEMIST
by Paulo Coelho

" Rahasia kebahagiaan adalah menikmati segala hal menakjubkan di dunia ini , tanpa pernah melupakan tetes-tetes air di sendokmu. " (hlm43)

". . .cinta tak pernah menghalangi orang mengejar takdirnya.
Kalau ia melepas impiannya, itu karena cintanya bukan cinta sejati " (hlm155)

" Kalau emas yang kautemukan itu terbuat dari unsur murni, maka dia tidak akan rusak. Dan kau bisa selalu kembali. Tapi kalau emas yang kautemukan itu hanya sepuhan belaka, seperti kilasan bintang jatuh, kau tidak akan menemukan apa-apa saat kau pulang nanti. " (hlm159)

Love me ( that's all i ask of you )

No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.

Say you'll love me ev'ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you're safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.

All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.

Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from you solitude.
Say you need me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Say the word and I will follow you.

Share each day with me, each night, each morning.

Say you love me...

You know I do.

Love me, that's all I ask of you.

Anywhere you go let me go too

Love me...

that's all I ask of you.

taken from Phantom of the Opera

simplify things

Hangout with da gals this noon.

Ary brangkat ke medan besok , dia kawin disono at may 19.
bacem jadi merasa terancam satu per satu temen-temennya pada merit
( gw juga sih, but i hate to admit it in front of public ! )
so i jez told her, ' Tenang aja ceum..... tiap org kan beda-beda waktunya.
Lagian enak qta yg masi single.... duitnya bisa diblanjain apa aja,
ga usah kasitau ke suami klo blanja, tus kapan aja mo jalan-jalan bisa..... blah blah blah etc'
( padahal gw jg pengen cepet-cepet merit..... dah cape bobo sendiri tiap malem )

ps. jangan sampe bLog gw dibaca Lau !
bisa-bisa langsung tancep gas dia dari Jkt buat nemenin gw bobo

Eniwei.... we have a good time
( well i dont know about others.... but i'm pretty sure i did )
it's always good if we can hangout with girls & laughing out something loud......

Ketemu dully + yin2..... ktnya iponk baru ngelahirin maret lalu.
suddenly i remember to give her a belated birthday call.
katanya lagi nyusuin baby claire.......
( huuuhh..... smua org pada sibuk ngurusin baby..... kpn giliran gw?!? )

ps2. jangan sampe dibaca Lau juga!
bisa-bisa dia langsung nancep & ngasi gw baby deh..........

Poto iponk+her LiL family diupload di blognya remi.......
baby claire mirip maminya....... chubby gituh......

Skarang gw bener-bener ngerasa telat dibanding yang laen......
orang laen lulus kuliah..... gw masi sekolah
orang laen pacaran..... gw masi jombLo & sekolah
orang laen merit & punya baby...... again..... gw masi JombLo.... & pengen skolah lg
payah.................

Target gw taun depan at least married deh.........
based on experienced temen-temen gw married bukan sama orang yang tadinya mereka suka.....
e.g mey-jain , sin-andrew , uhmm....... sapalage yeah........
kayanya itu doang conto extrim......
tapi stelah married ternyata yang cewe bisa blajar utk sayang sama cowonya toh..........


I learned to simplify my life
stop make things complicated to myself
do everything what i think good for me
learn to make & accept my mistakes

all grown - up

These couple of weeks gw banyak acara ngumpul sama temen-
temen, most of them with their own little family.

Case #1
sama temen-temen SMA (member of disam) ngumpul di Midori - Japanese resto di daerah Dago.
Djoe with her 8 months old baby, Ethan, very cute and handsome.
Sin juga bawa Edward/ Pao- pao, 6 months old.
Secara dong those 2 babies jadi main topic di acara dinner qta.
But funny how i didn't feel too intimidated ( possibility karena ada
temen - Vonny yang juga masi single, not to mention she's quite
pretty too) tapi yang udah married juga ada yang belum punya
baby.
Lagian. . . . . punya baby itu susah, susah mesti ngurusnya, susah juga untuk maintain atau balancing with my own activity
( maksudnya bukan activity such as gawean, tp activity such as shoping, hangout, seeking my own pleasure . . ya ampun gimana mo punya baby klo masi childish gene. . . . i'm jez not quite ready for that . . . )

Case #2
sama temen-temen gereja - took place in Dora's house - there are Debora & her children ( Kay almost 3 y.o and baby Ken )
duh. . . . . . beberapa jam bersama mereka aja bisa bikin gw headache, padahal gw suka loh ngajarin Kay & have a chat with her. . . .
tapi kalo disuru ngurus seharian sih kayanya bisa depresi gw.

Kesimpulan :
menurut gw yah . . . alangkah baiknya menunggu waktu Tuhan . . .
sekarang gw jadinya ga terlalu sering kena episode 'krisis' lagi.
Toh kalo dipikir pikir, kenapa juga gw suka bandingin sama orang laen, Tuhan tau waktu yang tepat koq. . . . .
( and gives a perfect person for me , not that he's perfect but he could love an imperfect person like me. . . . . nah lo. . . . bingung kan)

Also there is people who jez ready to hav baby but somehow they can't.
I know must be hard for them. . . . . secara umur & jam biologis juga udah nearly injury time untuk reproduksi , tapi yah gimana. . . . . manusia bole berusaha tapi kan Tuhan yang menentukan.
( kata-kata klise tapi terbukti kebenarannya)

Besides. . . . . according to my opinion
(ya iyalah ini kan bLog gw.... emangnya mo ada pendapat sape lagi)
After we thru a marriage, having a baby is not a must.
Ya kalo punya juga suatu anugrah, tapi lebih penting lagi hav a lifetime partner. . . . toh bakal ada saatnya anak-anak dewasa & left us , stiL it will be beautiful having someone to grow old together . . . . . . .
[ koq jadi kaya kata-kata di bLog martin..... gak orisinil.... ]

back home . . . . . . . . . (again)

It has been almost a month that i got home . . . . . .
and this time i don't have to back to Sumbawa again ( not as a doctor , but maybe someday for vacation or honeymoon ? we don't know yet . . . )

Funnily i kinda miss Sumbawa, i miss the sunny weather, beaches and sands, my friends in the health center, my patients, and all the little things that i couldn't get here. . . . .
I met my very bestfriend there, selvi, we used to go shopping together, talked about so many ( unimportant ) things, she's like a sister to me indeed, not to mention we have a lot in common ( so grateful that we've not crushed into the same guy ). On a day like this we could texted each other before we go to bed evrynight. . . . . if i haven't had her, i know i will never survive for 9 months in Sumbawa.
Things really get better if u have friends.

Last night in my bed before i went to sleep, i remembered these wonderful people that i have met there. . . . i would never get a chance to meet such people if i haven't gone there for the first place.
Heather put my pictures with her in her website, so lovely. . . . though we just get along for 3 months, i realized that no matter what our age, races, language. . . . . we could get friends anywhere. We understood the same jokes, she has taught me things that evry girl should know e. g. about guy's shoe size ( thanx Heather, it means soooo muuuccchhhhh to me ! )
The moment she went back to Sydney it felt like i'm losing my friend forever, it's like i would never seen her again. . . . though i knew i'd probably wrong. Besides we could stil keep in touch thru' mails right?

Eddie was another story there. . . . . . .
I met him in the ferry boat. I actually noticed him from my car before i get into the boat, he was wearing his sunglasses, look very cool and tall and tan. He brought his surfboard along with his bike. That's enough for my fantasy. . . . .
Of course i have an imagination to have a little conversation with him, but it'd be different to make it come true. . . . . until he came to approach me first when i was searching for wind near the window. Then i asked him several questions, he replied me back, then we ended up showing each other pictures in our cameras. He's actually 24 y.o but he looked much younger (he told the same thing about me. . . . . . i should've told him that i was 22 ! do u believe if there was a 22 y.o medical doctor ? )
He's truly a nice person, funny and polite ( like many decent Bristish men i supposed . . . . . it's hard to imagine that he would do something naughty to me. . . . . . vice versa :)
The last e-mail i received from him he told me he just moved to his new flat and that he missed too the sunny weather of Sumbawa.

I will never forgot this memorable experience when i went to one of the isles by boat, when i saw dolphins, a group of it, and they're actually jump around like i saw in the Tv's ! I always wanna be a veterinary since i was little, and that i could find so many uncommon animal is my greatest desire. . . . . . One of my dreams is to touch (or even swim among them) dolphins and whales. I always wanna go to the Seaworld, but as i grew up, i found out that it no longer become my priorities as an adult.

Another enjoyment for me is to watch the sunset. I was once ended up in the beach of Senggigi taking up picture of the sunset, that was a perfect sunset, a perfect sky, while we sitting in the sand. Seemed so romantic, but unfortunately i was just going with my friend, a regular friend, a bald guy with a big heart :) he shared me stories about his past love life, and i learned from it. If he were someone else that special to my heart, i would have kissed him while the sun goes down. . . . . . but what we've done later just finished our ice cream and walked home. . . . . .