all grown - up

These couple of weeks gw banyak acara ngumpul sama temen-
temen, most of them with their own little family.

Case #1
sama temen-temen SMA (member of disam) ngumpul di Midori - Japanese resto di daerah Dago.
Djoe with her 8 months old baby, Ethan, very cute and handsome.
Sin juga bawa Edward/ Pao- pao, 6 months old.
Secara dong those 2 babies jadi main topic di acara dinner qta.
But funny how i didn't feel too intimidated ( possibility karena ada
temen - Vonny yang juga masi single, not to mention she's quite
pretty too) tapi yang udah married juga ada yang belum punya
baby.
Lagian. . . . . punya baby itu susah, susah mesti ngurusnya, susah juga untuk maintain atau balancing with my own activity
( maksudnya bukan activity such as gawean, tp activity such as shoping, hangout, seeking my own pleasure . . ya ampun gimana mo punya baby klo masi childish gene. . . . i'm jez not quite ready for that . . . )

Case #2
sama temen-temen gereja - took place in Dora's house - there are Debora & her children ( Kay almost 3 y.o and baby Ken )
duh. . . . . . beberapa jam bersama mereka aja bisa bikin gw headache, padahal gw suka loh ngajarin Kay & have a chat with her. . . .
tapi kalo disuru ngurus seharian sih kayanya bisa depresi gw.

Kesimpulan :
menurut gw yah . . . alangkah baiknya menunggu waktu Tuhan . . .
sekarang gw jadinya ga terlalu sering kena episode 'krisis' lagi.
Toh kalo dipikir pikir, kenapa juga gw suka bandingin sama orang laen, Tuhan tau waktu yang tepat koq. . . . .
( and gives a perfect person for me , not that he's perfect but he could love an imperfect person like me. . . . . nah lo. . . . bingung kan)

Also there is people who jez ready to hav baby but somehow they can't.
I know must be hard for them. . . . . secara umur & jam biologis juga udah nearly injury time untuk reproduksi , tapi yah gimana. . . . . manusia bole berusaha tapi kan Tuhan yang menentukan.
( kata-kata klise tapi terbukti kebenarannya)

Besides. . . . . according to my opinion
(ya iyalah ini kan bLog gw.... emangnya mo ada pendapat sape lagi)
After we thru a marriage, having a baby is not a must.
Ya kalo punya juga suatu anugrah, tapi lebih penting lagi hav a lifetime partner. . . . toh bakal ada saatnya anak-anak dewasa & left us , stiL it will be beautiful having someone to grow old together . . . . . . .
[ koq jadi kaya kata-kata di bLog martin..... gak orisinil.... ]

back home . . . . . . . . . (again)

It has been almost a month that i got home . . . . . .
and this time i don't have to back to Sumbawa again ( not as a doctor , but maybe someday for vacation or honeymoon ? we don't know yet . . . )

Funnily i kinda miss Sumbawa, i miss the sunny weather, beaches and sands, my friends in the health center, my patients, and all the little things that i couldn't get here. . . . .
I met my very bestfriend there, selvi, we used to go shopping together, talked about so many ( unimportant ) things, she's like a sister to me indeed, not to mention we have a lot in common ( so grateful that we've not crushed into the same guy ). On a day like this we could texted each other before we go to bed evrynight. . . . . if i haven't had her, i know i will never survive for 9 months in Sumbawa.
Things really get better if u have friends.

Last night in my bed before i went to sleep, i remembered these wonderful people that i have met there. . . . i would never get a chance to meet such people if i haven't gone there for the first place.
Heather put my pictures with her in her website, so lovely. . . . though we just get along for 3 months, i realized that no matter what our age, races, language. . . . . we could get friends anywhere. We understood the same jokes, she has taught me things that evry girl should know e. g. about guy's shoe size ( thanx Heather, it means soooo muuuccchhhhh to me ! )
The moment she went back to Sydney it felt like i'm losing my friend forever, it's like i would never seen her again. . . . though i knew i'd probably wrong. Besides we could stil keep in touch thru' mails right?

Eddie was another story there. . . . . . .
I met him in the ferry boat. I actually noticed him from my car before i get into the boat, he was wearing his sunglasses, look very cool and tall and tan. He brought his surfboard along with his bike. That's enough for my fantasy. . . . .
Of course i have an imagination to have a little conversation with him, but it'd be different to make it come true. . . . . until he came to approach me first when i was searching for wind near the window. Then i asked him several questions, he replied me back, then we ended up showing each other pictures in our cameras. He's actually 24 y.o but he looked much younger (he told the same thing about me. . . . . . i should've told him that i was 22 ! do u believe if there was a 22 y.o medical doctor ? )
He's truly a nice person, funny and polite ( like many decent Bristish men i supposed . . . . . it's hard to imagine that he would do something naughty to me. . . . . . vice versa :)
The last e-mail i received from him he told me he just moved to his new flat and that he missed too the sunny weather of Sumbawa.

I will never forgot this memorable experience when i went to one of the isles by boat, when i saw dolphins, a group of it, and they're actually jump around like i saw in the Tv's ! I always wanna be a veterinary since i was little, and that i could find so many uncommon animal is my greatest desire. . . . . . One of my dreams is to touch (or even swim among them) dolphins and whales. I always wanna go to the Seaworld, but as i grew up, i found out that it no longer become my priorities as an adult.

Another enjoyment for me is to watch the sunset. I was once ended up in the beach of Senggigi taking up picture of the sunset, that was a perfect sunset, a perfect sky, while we sitting in the sand. Seemed so romantic, but unfortunately i was just going with my friend, a regular friend, a bald guy with a big heart :) he shared me stories about his past love life, and i learned from it. If he were someone else that special to my heart, i would have kissed him while the sun goes down. . . . . . but what we've done later just finished our ice cream and walked home. . . . . .

i wonder. . . .

Supposed to be rapat wisuda today, tapi ternyata dimundurin jadi besok!
mana ga enak badan lagi............yang ada chatting di mesko ama yosy (mengenang masa2 koas:)

golden old days . . . . . . . . . .

Skarang liat anak2 koas yang laen dah ga pada kenal , tampangnya baru smua (muda2 & culun2)

Yosy kinda asked me about si HW
(i'm so glad for what i feel right now , i dont feel sad when i talked about him , and i'm so glad for he's not mine - and i wasn't for him)

Maybe bcoz i have found a better person? i dont know . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Like i zed ( in my diary) klo ternyata tar ktemu chemistry nya ada , gw ngerasa enak , gw mau2 aja loh diajak merit ^^
(but this is a highly confidential information!)

So far , gw ngerasa nyaman ...........
He didn't keep me too tight (penting utk ce ky gw)
Sumtimes he busy with his own activity (so i could miss him ;)
StiL i know that he cares for me
Gw jd ngerasa..... maybe this is what we (supposed to) feel when we found our soulmate
(ktemu aja blon dah ngaku2 soulmate?)

Like he zed (di testimoni)

could an evil makes friendship with an angel?
they dont believe soulmate
but he had touched it, in her......
be careful , 'm jez an evil

I was trembling when i read it ( i thought i was the one who feel it for him.... )

What i like from him
1. lucunya itu (the way i always smile when i read mail/sms)
2. the depth of his thought (lumayan.... co gokil yang punya ke-kritisan sama sumthing juga.... - maybe we have sumthing in common)
3. sporty (sudah sepatutnya anak co suka maen bola/basket, bukannya fishing ! )
4. unpredictable (sumtimes he can be naughty, but also sweet)

I think............. ( i hate to admit this!) ............maybe.......... i'm in love or sumthing............
it's hard not to tell anyone about him right now ( klo kata tia, sperti topic of d'day )

stop it girl ! u dont even know him (yet)
I know...... it just...... i cant deny sumthin what i felt right?
It feels.................. so right ( when i told sis' about it , i'm so glad he came to me at the right moment........ )

I just wanna hear love songs ( not again !)
but now i understand evry each words . . . . . . .

gara-gara nico dapet pasien plus...

Nicolas Saputra sih pake nonton bareng di BSM pada saat aku jaga malem hari sabtu, alhasil udah merujuk pasien ke RSHS, 1 appendisitis akut, 1 hipertensi dalam kehamilan, 1 moderate head injury ( masih juga ga berhasil foto bareng. . . . .*hiks* nasib jadi petugas medis. . . . )

Forget how to please myself with beautiful boys...................... 

Ga sempet punya pacar............... 

Pedekate ga pernah berhasil bcoz we're just too busy...........even for myself........

.......10 minggu lagi udahan deh masa-masa kaya gini ini..............

i will miss it someday

but not now!

-_-

[continued. . . . . ]

They're who came from rich people tend to take things for granted . . . . maybe bcoz their parents fulfil what they want . . . . jadinya kurang struggle githu loh . . . . . menyedihkan kadang-kadang buat gw mah -have evrything but character . . . . .
- ni pasien kll (kecelakaan lalu lintas) pake motor which is ternyata anak orkay , his parents very decent . . . while we found out he was drunk and with another girl -- whom not his fiance -

On the next day was . . . . . they're who poor . . . . and got no family--
Kesian banget deh udah ngebesarin anak susah-susah, ternyata begitu anak-anak udah pada besar ditinggalin ma anak
- 70 sumthing years old man , he got 4 children but none of them care about their father !
Buat bayar pasang kateter aja cuman bisa pake tomat. . . kesian. . . . . . . BPH (=benign prostat hiperplasia) for the last of his life without being able to get an operation -

God , please remind me to always take care of my parents no matter why--
Trus jangan sampe orang susah, ga punya uang , dan ignorance, jadinya susah juga klo mau ngapa-ngapain. . . . . intinya. . . . jangan jadi orang bodo. . . . . susah lah 

(ripuh ceuk jalmi sunda mah)

Udah ga bisa ngapa-ngapain , mikir untuk kebaikan diri sendiri aja susah , gatau dari mana referensinya , sampe percobaan bunuh diri pake napacin 

(oh plis deh? emang bisa? kan kurang lethal?)

Dan untuk orangtua (for i will --someday) supaya jangan memanjakan anak-anak gw , biarpun keadaan gw wealth-being . . . . harta yang bisa gw wariskan everlasting maybe kebijaksanaan , pengetahuan tentang hidup. . . .*gaya bgt*

gutbye majalaya (+cinLok)

Entering 10th week in obgyn. . . . .
Ternyata saking sibuknya. . . . . jalanin aja gak kerasa juga, walopun koas gada kerjaan di RSHS tapi di RS daerah sedikit banyak bermanfaat juga

Just back home from RS Majalaya (yang jauh banget dibanding RS Cibabat , our previous experience)
Thanx God qta dapetnya cibabat duluan , coba klo majalaya dulu -pasti depressed banget dech

Mom said aku tambah gemuk+putih+fresh =)
Iyalah.....makan teratur 3 kali sehari plus ditraktir + jajan + cinLok geto loh

maTeL dateng pas hari ke-2, him dan jambrong-nya itu loch
Bener2 gak sempet cukuran di RS daerah yeah ?

Lalu dia mulai suka goda-godain gw + urtika gw itu yang malah muncul klo deket-deket dia.

Dapet APN 3, hecting epis banyak, kuret 1, pasang LS 1

Thanx yak ko Julius & kang Yogi.......... *start to miss them already*

Teteh-tetehnya very kind & ramah gitu loch...... menganggap dokter itu manusia , bukan rocker aja....huehehe..... gwe tidak banyak bergesekan ma anak-anak disini maybe karna situasi kerjanya juga kondusif, I mean klo dapet jaga juga enak bersama cogan & co BH (baik hati)

Meanwhile.......... another good news....... si handsome itu mau masuk Forensik tgl 14 feb....valentine's day geto loch. . . . .

Uhm . . . . . . . gwe tuh bener-bener lama gak date ama co.... tadi pas go out wif mateL , I jez realized klo gwe tuh seneng banget disetirin mobil ma cowo , kayanya pantes banget...... cowo banget lah. . . . . dia ada dd ce , pantes aja know how to treat a lady very well.

Ternyata hari-hari nyicil jaga gwe di musim libur terbayar setelah masuk RS Daerah, tus poli , tus cinLok , tus pacaran deh (maunya :-)

Time really movin' so fast , than qta lulus dech , lalu masuk bedah , dimana ada residen yang nitip salam utk gwe, kata t'vin.
Setelah maenan ma CR, kayanya kebutuhan gw saat ini cukup koas aja......

Residen2nya cukup menyenangkan.....banyak yang fisiologis, patologis beberapa.
Yang centil2 juga banyak, dari smester 2 sampe konsulen lengkap, selingkuhan tak terhingga dan unlimited , koas juga termasuk.

Ya ampun. . . . , balik ke RSHS tu males bangeth , ama stresnya , dikejar tugas Obsos , mesti ujian berkala KB , ujian Ginek, kompre deh finalnya . . . .

*baru mikirin aja dah males jadinya*